Linda had this fun vintage Betty Crocker cookbook. I tried to find a date on it unsuccessfully but it had to be from the late 50-60's. I read it. And then I found a blog called Jen but never Jenn where she tries to live like a 1950's housewife. It is a riot. She talks about how every dish has a sauce and how she fresh squeezes juice every morning. What was the fascination with moulding meat into all sorts of contortionist aspics? At any rate, it lit a fire in me (the cookbook, not the aspic)-this summer I haven't been cooking very much--too hot, too busy? When I got home I cooked. Yesterday was Peach Pork Chops, and today was Reuben Sandwiches/Apple Slaw, Eggnog pie. I garnished, I used my apron, I made up a beverage: mix orange juice concentrate w/ Bengal spice ice tea. Ellery said dinner today was "drooping" with flavor. Football has started so the walking vaccuum that is my son is happy to have good food around. Me, I must jog tomorrow.
Posted by Heather at 6:47 PM
Today in Homechurch, Cyler described a person who sounded freakish--it ended up being Einstein. Soren's talk compared jewish/muslim/christian concepts of hell. Ellery spoke about sharing and how gossiping was not a good way to share. I explored the concept of egalitarianism--used Numbers 11 and Matt 23/compared Camelot,strict hierarchy, hybrids like LDS church/asked "are men really created equal?"/looked at difference between forced economic equality vs Berkman's idea of equal opportunity which implies freedom, not the necessity of quantifiable economic equality.
I am enjoying our family retreat. Focusing inward is helping me to avoid being overly porous which is natural for me. My parents are worried, feel betrayed, scared my kids will devolve into homeless heroin junkies forever bereft of celestial glory (ok I exaggerate) if I don't take them to a brick/mortar church, want me to change and just do it their way. It bothers me that our searching hurts them but I need to find my own way to do religion that is healthy for our family. I am not a rank 'n file, pray/pay/obey mormon. I don't know how my religious life will look yet. But going back to status quo ante is not an option. We need to get our private religion aligned with God before we can find a fit in public religion. Internet sources are helping me, not to make a decision since I'm on retreat from making a final decision about religion, but to know I'm not alone in this. My specifically mormon list of helpful sites/people:
Zelophehad's Daughters (blog)
MormonStories and John Dehlin (podcasts), John you are a Godsend.
J Bonner Ritchie
Mostly though, I am still commited to only 2 thoughts. Love God and Be Quiet. For 2 more precious weeks I get to be off the ritualistic/legalistic hamster wheel and function solely on Love God and Be Quiet. It feels luxurious.
Posted by Heather at 10:54 PM